What is this nonsense.!?

wow well i guess i just got to get used to it. 
either that or its over.
wouldnt ever want it to be but idk maybe ill be ok.
would it even matter?
i feel like it wouldnt but thats just me.
and apparently im bad at reading these things.
but i guess.
time to get over it steph.
if things go the way i think they will
yea…
last words will be “ok”
and yup i will not have anything to say about it.
believe me. 

Idk what gets into me…

its either i care too much or i dont fucking care at all
i need to balance.
balance my schoolwork
balance my friendships
find balance in myself

i never realize how much i hurt my friends
but i know ive done it since hs
i meet someone new and then i become sooo close to them that i stop hanging out with the people that have been there for me the most.
I need to learn to balance
i really do…before it fucks me over